potential

I think I have lots of potential. To be, well, everything and anything I feel like. Which is good, because I have so many diverse interests and things that don't fit in together or anything! Need to work on my anxiety first though. I really need to.

Work, that's what life is made up of. Working as a professional (or not - it's your choice), yes that's one of the things we work at, but working on ourselves as human beings is one that even surpasses the job type work. Or at least I think it should.

I unfortunately struggle with both of these. Ok that's a lie. I definitely have the will to work on myself (I recently started seeing a private psychologist which I have never done before), and am constantly opening myself up for people to peer inside and take a look at what's 'in there'. I'd like to write a memoir, but I haven't had enough interesting things happen to fill an entire book yet. Maybe 3/4 of a book, but not the whole thing. Anyway, I also have a good work ethic (minus today - I missed a shift and didn't show up for the first time ever!), just happen to avoid going out an getting an GOOD job that I might actually enjoy. Lord forbid I should enjoy my job! I never really have before though, so I guess I can understand my reluctance from that angle. Otherwise, no, I should probably just get my act into gear (shit together) and apply for a job I am passionate about. Something to do with fashion maybe? Or writing?

Who knows. At the moment the work I'm concentrating on is the work on myself. Perhaps if I figure myself out first, the other stuff will just fall into place. Perhaps.